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Hello
marry Christmas to you .
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relationship,if you could
be sincere and lovely,well i
do cherish your profile,with whom
i shall be delighted to build a long
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lorj8, 12/27/2012 6:52:43 PM
Thank you so much for replying back so quickly and you wrote so much! I would have been happy with a paragraph lol.

I've actually been on PT for 4+ years now (although, for almost a year now I haven't been in any groups- just reading the community threads and certain public logs). I didn't pay attention to your logs up until the beginning of 2010 after you posted a picture of yourself and that caught my attention. I couldn't believe how amazing you looked at 40 (I'm still amazed haha), for one thing, and then couldn't believe you were once much heavier! Honestly, seeing someone like you who looks so damn good at 40 makes me less scared about getting older (of course I gotta take care of myself). Seriously, you look better than many females in their 20s that I know of!! I mean, I've seen women younger than you, yet they look like they're in their mid 40s. I think you forgot to answer this, but what nationality are you?

Yeah I can totally agree with what you said. I also late at night will binge to fulfill a void...then of course regret it the next morning or right after the binge. Of course, my binges happen a lot less frequently so that's why I've been able to maintain a 10 pound loss, but I still use food as my "pleasure" in life, thus why the weight isn't coming off as quickly (or rather I haven't had a loss in many many months...or no, I did very recently after I stayed on track for a week lol) as it could and I get off track. I was always an emotional eater, but when I got to my teens, that's when my habit got to me and I started putting on weight. Part of the reason why I ate was because of anxiety/depression. The other was to fill a void from lack of quality relationships/friendships and loneliness, low self esteem, that sort of thing. Today, my anxiety/depression is under control and I've been able to find a couple of positive, supportive people in my life. I equate that to being able to maintain my 10 pound loss. Now, I have 15 pounds left....

I finished school last June and have then have these board exams to pass, then find a job, and finally move out of my parents' house...move to SF (I know you have a race there coming up, right?). I believe that once I find more positive, supportive relationships (moving to SF will help with that), these 15 pounds will be permanently gone. See, as I said, I use food to fill this void I have, and for the anger I have towards a long time close friend of mine who often is toxic (yeah I'll stop at that lol).

Secondly, I absolutely agree- running has given me an incredible sense of power. Now, I can't run regularly. I get shin splints even though I get my shoes fitted and ice my shins. Up until a few weeks ago, I was adding a lot of running and sprints in my treadmill work outs. I love that high I get and when my tshirt is dripping in sweat..and you feel tough with these guys there at the gym seeing you run haha...and then you feel so empowered that you can reach the other goals in your life too. Ahh, I just can't explain it in words, but of course you understand it. Lately, I've been using the elliptical (to let my shins rest) and upping the resistance so I get that same sweat effect as running and burning a lot of calories.

Yeah so it's mainly the food thing for me. I'm taking a small step by allowing myself 1800 calories per day. I've been working out for many years now, so I have the body I want, I just gotta reveal the muscle under these 15 pounds of fat on me!!

I should try the gratitude/positive thoughts...and I think that will help me in other areas of my life too.

Well, thanks for reading. I just needed to let these thoughts out haha.

You've been a big source of inspiration for me. In fact, my favorite public log to me. You remind me that although you're giving up something (like eating whatever the heck you want), you're gaining much more- a fit body, which brings confidence and sooo much more.

Thanks again for taking the time out to respond back! Means a lot. Congrats on your success! You look incredible!!
asgirl75, 5/13/2010 3:32:19 AM
asgirl75

completely doused in AWESOMESAUCE! to be so nicely complimented by a 24 year old kitten telling me I look a good 10 years younger than my actual 40 years! and "cute" too! you made my day! thank you! :D

congratulations to you on your PERMANENT 10 pound weight loss! that is outrageously, phenomenally inspiring to me! I just made a break through in my thinking yesterday, and I believe a PERMANENT 5 pound weight loss is in my inevitable immediate future! your note just sealed the deal for me! thank you!

what helped me with my previous success? hmmm... in the beginning it was my single minded laser beam focus to watch the numbers fall. to do that, I had to watch my portion sizes by measuring my food, counting my calories, and getting to the gym every morning when they opened. and the weight plummeted!

this past year though, I've been stuck in a holding pattern. I've been complacent, I lost my single minded focus. I lost my edge. I let that priority slip. now I feel like I am just barely, slowly but surely, coming back. I recently joined the PONR program and it is like a shot of pure, uncut optimism straight in the artery!

and like you, my problem is the diet part. I also have a problem with food. when I was in college, I'd often comment, to my now husband, that food was a form of cheap entertainment.

and about that article Joshua wrote this past week... I've been in denial... I haven't wanted to address it yet... yes, I absolutely do get an emotional payoff from food, from overeating food, after my dinner is long gone, sometimes I overeat late at night until I am so stuffed that I actually hurt. but the physically discomfort is temporarily easier to deal with than addressing the real issues... or so I thought... I now realize it is stress. unacknowledged stress. of course I'm stressed, but no point in crying about it, right. I just have to make the best choices with the options I have available, and roll with the punches as best I can. and life will always have stressors. I need to deal with them better than I have in the past, and not stuff myself something silly. I am still working on this. I am a constant work in progress.

yes, I slip up. I'd like to think I quickly get back on track. thank you for pointing that out to me. I just see the ebb and flow.

how have I been able to attain consistency... logging on PeerTrainer daily, especially the weekends! The weekends are the most difficult, that is why I have my "official" weigh in day on Sundays. but also having that one person I connected with in the beginning has made all the difference. you don't need to have one person the entire time here, you can have several. but it really helps to have at least ONE person you can count on and that can relate to you and walk the journey side by side with... I got really lucky finding someone in the beginning here. I've met a few more along the way. support is HUGE! I don't know if I could have been as successful in the beginning with out it. and this past year, if it weren't for my support system here on PeerTrainer, I probably would have quit a long time ago. I think you get what you put in. though, I'm much more relaxed here now... with this whole process... maybe I'm finally finding my permanent groove (?)

my patience in the weight loss process... lots and lots of crazy self talk. I love positive affirmations. and really, if you set your mind to it, you can achieve just about anything, I believe. If you know deep down in your bones that it is true, that you will achieve your goal, then you just keep going, despite the inevitable slip ups. it's all in the mind. everyone slips up... you just have to keep moving in the right direction, and eventually, you'll get there. I really believe this.

what other forms of happiness/satisfaction have I been able to replace the food with..
* the Gratitude Notes have been helping me lately. sometimes I've been adding them to my PT notes to focus on the positives, because I've been feeling really low the past few weeks. "What you focus on expands, and when you focus on the goodness in your life, you create more of it." so I've been trying to do this, so that I can be more appreciative, and more positive and optimistic. without hope, you've got nothing. I'm a dreamer, I like to dream big! I have crazy ideas of marathons and ironmans. I love it!
* Running gives me a sense of pride and accomplishment that no amount of flattery from men or women will ever provide. sure, it's nice to have the boys and girls think you are stinkin' sexy, smokin' HOT! but really, sexual allure and beauty fade, and after awhile, it doesn't really do as much for you in your 40s as it did back in your 20s. I mean, positive attention like that is nice, don't get me wrong, I still want to look HOT! :) but it is so fleeting and temporary and it doesn't motivate me as much as chasing the superhero dream. wearing a race bib makes you feel like an ActionAdventureSuperheroDiva - it's the most amazing feeling... because YOU did that and no one can give that to you... you have to EARN IT! I love that... not everyone can push their body and mind to the limit and soar! I wanna fly! it's very alluring and addictive, running. I know it is not for everyone, but there is something about wearing that race bib, and pushing your body beyond what you think is possible. you surprise yourself! and that is the best feeling ever! it's body/mind/soul and I desperately want more of it! I've read articles that make reference to the runners high and how people with highly addictive personalities take up the sport... it's like a nirvana fix.
* I've also been doing the Pride Account on my log from time to time. "Give credit where credit is due." I think if we focus on the good we did that day, instead of beating up ourselves over the bad, we are in a better place to keep going, the relentless pursuit of our ultimate goal. we can't beat ourselves up with negative self talk, so to help myself feel better I sometimes do the Pride Account. I got that from the Beck Diet Solution.
* and I also like all that zen stuff....

any other advice that has helped you reach your goal...
well, I reached my first goal, but I haven't reached my final ultimate weight loss goal... yet! stay tuned :)
kim_, 5/11/2010 8:10:33 PM
Hi Kim! I've been reading your logs everyday now for the past couple months. You're such an inspiration and you look amazing! Congrats on your success. I can't believe you're 40!! You could pass for 30!! You're really pretty. What nationality are you? I admire how every now and then you slip up, but you quickly get yourself back on track. I also admire how you stick to your planned meals. I admire your consistency.

If you could please share some advice/what has helped you with your success would be appreciated. So, I'll be 24 in July and I'm 5'2'' and right now I'm at 130 pounds. I've been able to maintain a 10 pound weight loss for the past half year now (which is a huge deal for me, as I've been gaining/losing the same 5-10 pounds for the past 5 years. I also have a lot less binge episodes and get on back quickly the next day when I mess up). Now I have 15 pounds to reach my goal. I do moderate to heavy cardio 45 min to over an hour, 6 days per week and strength training. My problem is the diet part. The types of foods I eat are whole, clean, full of fiber, healthy, a lot of organic products (this was how I was raised). I count calories to keep me on track. However, I have a problem with food. Just like what the recently posted article by Joshua explains, food has a deeper meaning for me. It gives me a happiness that I can't really seem to find else where, for now. I get the sense from your logs that you also attain some sort of emotional satisfaction from food too...BUT, you overcome the slip up and quickly get back on track. You're consistent. I would just like some advice about how you've been able to attain consistency, you patience in the weight loss process, and what other forms of happiness/satisfaction (if any) you've been able to replace instead of food. And any other advice you can give me that has helped you reach your goal.

Thank you for your time!
asgirl75, 5/10/2010 1:29:28 PM
Baked Tilapia on April 24th looks absolutely delish!
michelle, 4/26/2010 12:21:57 PM
Tina - thanks! I'm so excited! come join us over in marathonmamas & maniacs anytime. I'm hoping to run Berlin (dream big, right?!) and hopefully London (crossing fingers) and Paris. You ladies are more than welcome to join me anytime in Lux to get your RUN ON! :) and now I gotta start running again so you two ladies don't leave me in the dust! ha! :D

I love your blog entries. thanks so much for gifting us all with Diet Buddy Girls.

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kim_, 3/9/2010 5:29:08 PM
Kim,

VERY cool to hear you are joining us ladies in EUROPE!!! Aren't we fancy??? Enjoy!
Tina (aka squanna)
Jana's Diet Buddy Girl (in Germany)
squanna, 3/7/2010 2:21:09 PM
heycv70 - you do have the commitment it takes for an improved healthier lifestyle. as long as you make more good choices than bad, you'll be golden :) YOU CAN DO IT! It's not about perfection, it's about progress. We are all a constant work in progress. and every "body" is different. You can do it! You deserve it! You are worth it! You can accomplish that and so much more. Go for it!

mkq82 - thank you so much. you can accomplish all that and more! start out slow and build up. and remember when you fall off the horse, which we all do, just get right back on. again. and again. and again. :) and for the graphics, everything is done in HTML. If you head on over to the team: Weekend Warriers, check out their "community" section tab. under there, click on "HTML" and you'll find my notes. I hope this helps :-)

thank you so much Jozy, njdk34, and rroad. your kind words of encouragement mean a lot to me. thank you. :o)

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kim_, 7/31/2008 10:31:40 PM
heycv70 - you do have the commitment it takes for an improved healthier lifestyle. as long as you make more good choices than bad, you'll be golden :) YOU CAN DO IT! It's not about perfection, it's about progress. We are all a constant work in progress. and every "body" is different. You can do it! You deserve it! You are worth it! You can accomplish that and so much more. Go for it!

mkq82 - thank you so much. you can accomplish all that and more! start out slow and build up. and remember when you fall off the horse, which we all do, just get right back on. again. and again. and again. :) and for the graphics, everything is done in HTML. If you head on over to the team: Weekend Warriers, check out their "community" section tab. under there, click on "HTML" and you'll find my notes. I hope this helps :-)

thank you so much Jozy, njdk34, and rroad. your kind words of encouragement mean a lot to me. thank you. :o)

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kim_, 7/31/2008 10:31:33 PM
Kim you are soo beautiful!! You have completely transformed your body! You are like an inspiration to me. Keep up the great work....and I hope that I can accomplish what u have.

BTW...could u tell me how you added graphs to your profile?? Thanksss
mkq82, 7/31/2008 5:16:24 PM
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