33 years old. Partnered. No kids yet, but hopefully my partner will conceive this year. Four (!) dogs, one cat. Social worker in the medical field - emotionally draining.
I'm 35 years-old, single, and have always battled my weight. I don't know what I weigh right now, but as I've struggled with eating disorders (bulimia & exercise bulimia), numbers freak me out, and quite frankly -- I don't want to know exactly how much I weigh! I'm 5'6" tall, and am guessing that I weigh about 175-185 lbs right now.
During my early-mid 20's, I successfully lost about 80 lbs. I accomplished this on my own, losing weight in increments, following an old Weight Watchers menu, and hitting the gym (a lot). I became neurotic about my weight loss, and had whittled myself down into a sizes 4 & 6 ("fat" by the standards of the fashion & film industries). I looked awesome, but later averaged-out to an ideal weight of about 155 lbs.
Over the past four or so years, I have struggled with depression & grief, and done a whole lotta emotional eating & binge drinking. Not only did I gain back all of the weight that I'd worked so hard to lose, but more!
Two years ago, I was wearing sizes 18-20, but without effort, dropped some weight, and was in a 16. I joined Weight Watchers with good intent, but attended only one meeting, where I was horrified to see that I weighed 220 lbs. (I thought I was about 190 lb)
Now, I've dropped a bit of weight again, am in a 12-14, and don't want to upset myself by jumping on the scale.
I definitely need to lose at least 40 lbs, to be at the high end of my ideal weight range (124-155 lbs). I'd LIKE to lose more, but right now, am aiming for 20 lbs.
I am tired of feeling embarrassed & ashamed. I want my pride, confidence, and self-esteem to return.